Salaam Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum.....

dekat 6 bulan gak aku x conteng2 kat blog ni..

sorri laaa...bizi sket la lately..

alhamdulillah..da naik grade..means more responsibility and more stress...

semakin stress..semakin byk aku nanges...

its ok...ill cry if that can release the stress...

biarlah orang nak kater ape pon bile otai nanges...

we are just human...bukannyer Tuhan...

and human cry....walau sekuat mane pon dier...

and now ill spend more time offshore rather than onshore....

i think i've spent too long offshore and im used to it...

walk like a guy..work like a guy..talk like them..hangout at the smoking area with the guys (aku x smoke la tapi)....but still cry like a gurl..hehe...

banyak dugaan dekat offshore ni yang buatkan aku belajar banyak benda...

yang paling penting dugaan ni buat aku makin dekat dgn Tuhan...

sounds good kan?? Hopefully aku jadi makin baiklaa..

Allah takkan duga kiter kalau kita x mampu nak hadapinya...

n pada pendapat aku..

Allah keep on duga kita sebab kiter slalu lupe kat Dia lepas dugaan tuh settle...betol tak?

so He keeps on testing us untuk sentiasa dekat dengan kiter..

So be grateful for all the challenges in life...Allah sayang kiter kot...Thank you Allah (sambil nyanyi2)

ouh..n aku da start share all the stress with my beloved mum...

for your in fo..aku dari kecik bukan jenis mengadu dgn mak...

"mak arini adik stress la belaja"

"mak adik tensen la ngan kawan adik tuh"

" maa..adik suke lelaki tuh..tapi dier mcm x suke adik jer"

"maa..adik x bleh jawab exam tadi"

i never mention those words to my mum..neither my dad...

i normally shout it out to some other frens..n slalu nyer guys...

but suddenly i found out that guys are just bullshit..

they always there when they need u....but missing when we need them..

im just tired with those guys...

So now i appreciate my mom more...hehe..

ouh suddenly aku da start suke membaca...

ni sume gara2 bace Tentang and Kentang by Saharil..

aku sanggup pegi Shah Alam semata mata nak beli Tentang Kentang..

amd bought few books from FIXI...and it was a good books to read..

and last week aku spend another hundreds for books..

reading make me thinking alot...

reading Isabella buat aku nak bace banyak2 buku agame and jadi org yg berilmu...

da lame x update blog..banyak plak aku nak cite..hehe..

im fasting offshore..alhamdulillah..belom ader yg terkantoi sebab x larat...

sape yg bg alasan x bleh pose kat laut..tuh sume bullshit!!!

yer..aku taulaa korang sume ader bazaar ramadhan...pelbagai juadah disediakan....korang cume sediakan duit jer..

tapi kat laut pon pelbagai juadah jugak...freeeeee lagi....so mane lg untung??? haha..ayat nak sedapkan ati...

seronok bukak pose same2 dgn lelaki2 lain..sbb skang aku sorang jer tuan puteri kat laut ni...mcm2 jugak aku demand..hehe..

nah gamba kiut aku sempena pose...mane la tau kot2 ader stalker blog yang rindu~~ok..aku perasan..

My first love..

Haloo...da bersawang da blog aku nih..nk updet tp asik malas jer...

Hmm..this time nk update samting yg berlegar2 kat dalam kepale otak aku lately..

Ni sume gare2 love story ngan kepochiss sampai aku terconfess my first love and i cant stop thinking bout it since that!!

My first love..or shud i say my first crush...

aku rase mase tuh cgu tade dalam kelas..ader meeting kot...so we need to combine klass..ouh mase ni dajah satu..so i combine with his class laa..first time seeing him..cute..teruss aku suke!! i still remember he is colouring that time and he has talent in art..not only in colouring but also drawing..sgt cantik ok!! sgtlah kalah dengan aku yg x artistik langsung ni..

im still waiting for u~~

not only good in art..he is smart n pandai too..x silap aku mase darjah satu dier top 3 gak..maybe no 1 kot..so do i..so darjah due we went to the same klass.. and i was like fucking happy for that..

the other thing is my dad and his mom are actually frens mase kat maktab..so lagi la aku hepi!! mak dier baik ngan aku..so darjah due we start to be frens..main bola same2..mcm2 main laa..and we always fight in our studies...slalu x puas ati kalau masing2 lg hebat kan..haha..persaingan sehat..n mase tuh ramai perempuan syok kat dier..yerlaa..hensem la

katekan..tapi aku diam jer simpan dalam hati..

so our frenship goes on sampai darjah enam..in between that mcm2 yg jadi..we fight..we being good frens..we quarel..we argue..we studied and shared tips together and we both scored UPSR..instead of doing well in academics..we did well in sports too..he played soccer and other sport..so do i..playing handball and others..and there are rumours that year me n him will get best male n female student tapi sbb aku blank mase buat karangan upsr n cgu x konfiden aku bleh score karangan ke x..trus that year xder award tuh..haha..

then skolah menengah..kinda happy because we went to the same school but aku sedih sket sbb not in the same class..and he has new frens..so we are not close anymore..not playing together dah..nk cakap pon da jarang..yelaa..da besar dan matang..lg byk pompuan cantik yg menggoda...form2 pon x same klass..as always dier mmg bijak so he managed to get in 1st class not like me yg hanye layak masuk 2nd klass jer..but form 3 we are in the same class..happy la jugak..

but he changed as the time goes on..started smoking..ponteng..kawan dgn org yg tah pape..but as i said..he is bijak..dalam malas2 pon he managed to score straight A in PMR..and aku slalu gak bekap dier dulu mase dier ponteng..hmm..form4 kitorang terpisah..i went to mozac, he went to teknik..and since that kitorang da x kontek2 lg da..tapi ader laa dekat2 nk spm aku kol rumah dier..talk to his mom and ask him about spm..walaupon mase tuh byk citer aku dengar pasal dier..but i believe he is doing great in his spm because aku tau dier mmg bijak..

and believe me..that was our last conversation..since that kitorang x pernah jumpe and contact each other..and yess.. i miss him!! alot!!

banyak jugak citer2 yg aku dgr pasal dier..baik dan buruk..but i knew and i trust him..walaupon org kate dier malas..jahat..tapi aku sure he will do well in his studies and life..

lately ni baru la aku dapat fon number dier n ader la sms2 sket tanye kabar n updet perkembangan..hmm..but the sad thing is i heard that dier ader awek daa..huhu..

maybe salah aku sbb aku x pernah bgtau dier how much i love and care for him..and i dont know why lately ive been thinking bout him alot.. and i miss him..i missed all the time that we had mase kecik..all the fights..

and aku masih berharap satu hari nanti..dier akan menoleh dan masih ader ruang di hatinyer untuk aku ketika itu~~

ader byk lg yg aku nk citer pasal dier..tapi..laterlah..and i just cant hold my tears..and i regret that i never tell him how much i love him..

to him.. I love u since the first time we met and till end of my life

i hope..u are the one who will sit by my side and share tears and joys with me...i still hope..

Bunge2 di Taman Bunge

haloo kengkawan..pembace2 yg setia..(ade org bace ke??) lame aku x updet blog ngn gamba2 yg x brape nk indah kan.so enjoy some photos from me n my BFF..yg sorng lg tade sbb saket perut tp bleh balik KL T_T...

meet syikin..

sebok connect to wifi..get a smartphone with internet lorr...its worth it..make sure its iphone k!!

im waiting..but for who??

pose ala2 ayu gituh 

err..

lagi pose ayu~~baju da lame beli tp 1st time pakai

gambarapher dan beg kamera beliau

i can say this is my best shot of the day..She is engaged~~ and getting married soon..-_-"

Good Morning Kemaman

pagi morning ohio...
my first wiken in kemaman after 2 months maybe.. haha.. since i went back sban/kl every wiken for the past 2 months..

im still golek2 on the bed.. malas nk bgn but got lots of things to do.. still thinking shud i go office or not today.. n most important thing HUNGRY!!!! cacing2 di perut ibarat sedang mencakar2 dinding perut.. adess..

ok penulisan blog yg agak serabut kerana otak juge serabut.. mcm sabut.. a little bit dissappointed n angry.. kenape susah sgt u nk reply my sms?? kalau ye pon xmo layan me... please at least reply la kate "im bz".. susah sgt ke nk reply??? haih.. semakin hari semakin jauh.. semakin aku nk tinggalkan semakin berat..haih..
kadang2 rase dipergunekan pon ade...aku bukan anak patung...arini ko sayang n esok ko buang..

ok la nk sambung tdo lg..


lomo effect sket

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Hai enchek Blog

halooooo... lame gua x updet blog.. rindu la jugak.. tp ade ke org bace blog ni?? ade aku kesah??

hati x menentu lately.. mcm2 feeling.. haih.. malas la nk pikir.. malas nk taip gak.. later je la gua stort mori yerr..


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