otai is back!!!

IM BACK!!!
playing for sport carnival...
lawan civil td..
4-0 clean shot!!
i love this feeling...
one more game tomorow..
kalau menang g FINAL!!
hopefully..
btw..
thanks defender esp cham for helping me alot..
hehe..
man of the match is cham..
byk bola yg cham clear..
tendangan yg padu!!

then after the game td the guys almost had a fight...
sbb tapuas ati ngan reff..
reff dier mmg sengal2 pon..
sian cham..
she is so scared to death!!
she almost cry..
hiding behind me..

dear cham..
u dont have to worry at all..
bcoz i am here to protect u..
i will always be there to protect u..
always...
even if u are late to the court..
even if we always had arguement..
i will protect u forever..
=)

kenapa saya tidak merase bahagia....??

minggu ni aku raser mcm x bahagie n tade life..kenape???aku raser sbb nih:

• since aku masak sendiri hari2..aku xkan keluar bilik kalau tade klas/meeting or ape2 yg penting..makanan kat umah nih dah cukup..so mapley pon da jarang
• jan05 sport carnival da abes..no more mapley after training futsal
• retired from RCSU..no more hanging out with RC people..slalu lepak lpas meeting..jumpe derang 1bln sekali pon jarang...
• no more events...dah retire memegang event..so da jarang bersosial dgn org luar..
• da final year klas pon da x same dgn geng2 lame...sudah lame x keluar mkn dgn bun n the gang...
• floles tgl cham jer...dating berdue dgn cham adalah sgt bosan..mcm da lame x kuar ngan cham..dulu at least seminggu sekali mesti kuar dgn ben,cham,emie,apam,izul n cimah..g mkn bubur..minum abc..slurpee with pyjamas..

bosan kan hidup aku???need frens to hang out...

aku miss macik nih!!!

ini rumet aku b4 intern..Nor Emie Akmal Suhaimi...
last time jumpe emie bulan 12..da 4 bulan aku x jumpe..
i miss u emie..
miss your super duper loud voice..
miss ur love..
emie slalu slimutkan aku mlm2 sbb aku malas nk tarik selimut...hehe
walaupon kadang2(selalu sbenanyer) emie nih sgt meng'annoy' kan...tp dier best~~(mcm iklan petronas)
i miss ur sexy look too!! (yg ben asik duk mintak gambar 'itu')

emie buat aku raser best jd rumet dier..
aku raser mcm secure..
raser mcm bile had a nitemare...boleh baring sebelah emie n hug her...
tp macik nih tdo lasak nk mampos..kejang badan aku tdo sbelah dier..abes 1 katil dier conquer..


emie...
bile nk dtg lawat aku...
cepatla lawat aku kat bumi UTP yg tandus nih...

an apology specially dedicated to soleh..

soleh: kepada otai tercinta, aku dah baca blog ko marah btul kat aku yer..

sebenarnya aritu aku dah tego ko balik cuma ko tak perasan...

beg yg aku bawak tu pun bag bowling

aku tak balik kampung pun...

n jgnlah marah...

ko yg tak prasan...

aku dgr kot lepas tu ko kater "kerek siot"..
aku ingat pasal aper..rupanya ko kater aku tak tego..

aku ckp slow sgt kot ko tak dgr...

jgnmrah2 yer comel ~ :)


so dgn ini aku memohon maaf to soleh atas kesalah fahaman ini..this is what im waiting for...aku tgu explanation ko..sbb ko xkan nk saje2 ignore ...n sori 4 using that bad word..bile da bengang sgt sume bleh kuar..sori again..




lesson learnt:

1. jgn ignore kwn2 yg lalu sebelah..at least senyum pon ok daaa....
2. jgn duk emo trus..lek2 lu
3. kalau da wat salah mintak maaf..kan senang..=)
   

How much does it cost to be glamour??

Dress : RM 30.00 from F.o.S

White Pants : mmg da ader

Tudung : pinjam ekin

Neklace: RM 6

Clutch : RM16.90

Bracelet : RM 13.00

Heels : pinjam bella

Friends n the Memories : priceless

Total Spend : RM 65.90

n i look good didnt I??hehe..ni la org kater menang membeli menang memakai..

Jan 05 Grand Dinner - Glamorous Red Carpet.

Event: Jan 05 Grand Dinner

Date: 17 April 2009

Venue: Impiana Casuarina Hotel

Theme: Glamorous Red Carpet

People: Beloved Cool Jan 05 people...

mlm td is the best night ever...dinner batch..selepas berpenat dan berhitaman sgn acara2 sukan..tibelah waktu kemuncak utk dak2 jan05..mkn2..tema pun da glamer..so sumer org mmg glamer abes rr...

mlm td aku mmg lapar giler kot..pedulikan ape org kater..mkn kene puas beb..60 hengget kot~~biler tibe time mkn jer..x sempat waiter nk bukak penutup makanan aku da bukak dulu..belum sempat waiter sendukkan nasik..lauk da abes..haha..duk semeja ngan jantan2 yg kuat mkn ni la yg puas..kalau dibezakan dgn meja yg sumenye pompuan..food byk lagi kot..aku raser nk angkat jer food derang letak meja aku..huhu..to me the food is biase je laaaa..xder la spesel sgt..tp aku mkn 2 kali gak sbb lapa..(gamba food x sempat abes sbb kitorang lapa sgt)

mlm td sgt seronok walaupon aku sgt mengantuk sbb flow event dier mcm sgt bosan...tp memori mlm semalam adalah seribu kenangan yg indah..satu hari nnti kalau kiter kenang balik saat2 indah mlm td mesti mampu mengukir senyuman indah dan airmata pon boleh mengalir...

x sangka...da almost 5 thn kiter kat utp nih mengukir kenangan pahit dan manis...susah dan senang yg kiter same2 lalui...satu hari nnti kiter pasti merindui saat ini..maser tgk montage by course..aku almost mengalirkan air mata..sbb terharu dan rase sgt seronok bile mengimbau segala kenangan since kiter foundation lg...dan mengenangkan kiter hanye ader almost 6 bulan jer lagi untuk terus berjuang bersama2 dan mengukir lebih banyak kenangan indah bersama...

teman tapi mesra

with ma beloved rumet

osmet2 yg hot but cool~~

soya team??

the award

n i won the most sporting award..haha..sporting kan aku??x sangke lak leh menang award..tq2 sbb mengawardkan award inin kepada aku..huhu..

door gift

note: nnti aku upload more photos n stories k...

hari sukan jan05

si comel yg nampak gagah...

Jangan Tegur...

aku baru balik tgk jangan tegur kat ipoh parade with the 3 dayahs...
citer dier tade la best sgt..bosan gak..
takut???
takut la gak sket2..n terperanjat..tuh jer..
lawak gak biler tgk mayat opah tuh jalan2..

bg aku tajuk ngan citer cam lari sikit..tang maner yg dier tegur aku pon tatau..
to me..jgn pndg blakang lg best kot..

and the funniest thing happen to me kat wayang..tgh duk syok mkn pop corn...
tade scene yg cemas n scary pon maser tuh...tp aku bleh telepas pop corn aku..
separuh gak r melambak atas lantai..mesti org lain igt aku tekejut sampai tumpah popcorn..padahal maser tuh scene biase jer..or maybe ader "samting" yg jatuhkan pop corn aku???

soleh are just suxx!!!

mlm td abes futsal...lam kul 12 aku pon balikla nek moto ngan cham..then nampak soleh depan mate tgh duk sorong beg..baru balik dr kg kot..n when we meet our riends..of coyrse first we will smile..and he did not smile back..maybe dier x prasan..then aku tego r.."baru balik ke soleh??"..soleh dgn muke babinyer wat bodow jer lalu sebelah aku...

if u were me...ape yg korang raser???raser mcm org bodoh jer duk tego org yg langsung x kesah akan kewujudan kiter..mmg babi tul soleh..u r suxx..is that how u react seing somebody u know???

TAMO CAKAP...

im not in the mood to talk to everyone...
except for rumet n floles only...
so yg lain tuh..
GO AWAY!!...

Terima Kasih Tuhan...

terime kasih Tuhan...
sbb jdkan aku dengan sempurna..

org lan duk sebok...
"mate aku besar sgt laa"
"idung aku besar sgt"
"mulut aku mcm itek"
"aku ni itam laa"
"'itu' aku mcm nasik lemak 50sen jerr...'itu' aku mcm nasik lemak ayam harge 3.50"
"bontot aku besar la...bontot aku kecik laa.."
"muke aku cacat sbb tade kening..ader yg kening telebih sampai tesambung.."
"bulu mate aku mcm penyapu"
"bulu kaki aku panjang sgt..gulung2 r.."


tapi..
aku raser..
segale yg aku ader...
cukup memuaskan hati aku..
walaupon aku gemok sket..tp xpe..
aku hepi..

aku ader 2 mate yg cantik yg sederhana besarnyer...
aku ader 2 kening yg cukup sempurna..(ader yg kater aku shave kening but sbenanyer semula jadi)
aku ader idung yg x besar,x kecik,x tinggi,x rendah...
mulut yg biase..dengan 2 lesung pipit di kiri dan kanan...
kulit muke aku tade la flawless tp jarang ader masalah jerawat..
x hitam sgt..x putih sgt...sawo matang..
rumet aku ngan birs duk sebok nk kecikkan kan punggung..tapi aku raser aku punyer just nice..
ramai kwn2 aku yg dok2 tanye cmner nk besarkan kan 'itu'...
'itu' aku just nice jer...
bulu mate aku pon nice..x panjang mcm penyapu..x pendek pon..

cume aku ni gemok sket la kot..ngan sebijik tummy..huhu..yg tuh jer yg aku nk buang..
yg lain maintain jer..

"love urself before u love others"


ape yg aku paling suke kat diri aku??
bulu kening yg cantik n 2 lesung pipit di pipi...
besyukur sgt2...(susah nk dapat lesung pipit wooo...2 plak tuh)


i love being myself~~~

keep silent..

I am...
laughing outside..
but crying inside...

to love is so hard..
hiding the love is harder..

i see u staring at me...
but u never truly see me..

why i love u so much..
when u are out of touch..

Feelings that we could have shared,
you flung behind without a care.

It seems so hard to let you go,
and the process is so slow.

I don't know whether I should stay,
and waste another day away.

I do know, though, that all this pain,
will soon drive me insane.

You don't feel me loving you,
and you just can't seem to get a clue.

You don't see me cry inside,
and in you I know I can't confide.

Yet still I find that you are blind,
to things meant to be kind.

You know nothing of my fears,
and are unaware of all my tears.

I know I really can't deny,
things I feel as I look you in the eye.

So who will help me make it though?
Who will tell me what to do?

How come every time I see your face,
for me there's never any space?

Maybe someday you'll see me differently,
so until then, I'll be waiting silently.